Letters For Lucas

Wonders, Mishaps, Blunders and Joy.. commentary on my life as a mom in the form of letters to my son

You’ve Got A Friend In Me

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1. Thoughtful
2. Meticulous
3. Curious
4. Reserved
5. Loyal

When you first meet me, you might think I’m shy, quiet, obstinate, stuck-up, or even bitchy. And those five words describe me pretty well too.

Sometimes.

You see, I don’t let just anyone and everyone in. I have a very close knit circle of friends and only a very few get to ever know the real me, but once I decide to let down my guard and share myself, you will have a friend in me for life.


You can trust me to be faithful and true
You can trust me through and through

When you hurt, I hurt
I’m always here to comfort

I’m the friend you can call in the middle of the night
Tell me your troubles and I’ll help you see the light

I may not always have the best advice to give
But I’ll listen with an open mind and heart and always be supportive

When you need a friend, I’ll be there
This I promise, this I swear

This post is for Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop – Prompt #2 Describe yourself in five words. Choose one, and write a poem.

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You Know You’re A Mom When-sDaze

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You know you’re a mom when…

  • You physically walk a toy out to the dumpster so you never have to hear it or trip over it again.
  • You will never move a block, an hour or a state away with a toddler without booking a babysitter for 72 hours.
  • You have been sneezed on hundreds of times. In the mouth.
  • You swear you will never climb through the McDonald’s PlayPlace again. It may say that it is “suitable” for adults, but it’s really not.
  • You consider the person who invented the sippy cup a genius and an idiot. Does one exist that doesn’t leak?!
  • You start to sound like your child.
  • You know for all the awful, annoying, patient-trying, frustrating roller coaster ride of moments, there are, every once in a while, scattered throughout the day, small moments that are pure magic in the life of being a mom.

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Anticipating 10 Great Things

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As I busy myself with unpacking, organizing and getting to know my new surroundings, my sister Leah is guest posting for me today.

It has been three months since your aunt Leah visited Letters For Lucas and after spending several days with us celebrating Thanksgiving and keeping you occupied while we geared up for the big move, she has a list to share of all the things she’s looking forward to with you:

I just spent a few days with you and your parents over the Thanksgiving holiday so I got to see just how you are growing. You are starting to talk a lot more now and really develop your own cute little personality. It makes me wonder what you are going to be like when you are older and can really hold your own in a conversation. I am so excited to be apart of that life that you will create for yourself.

Here’s a list of 10 things that I’m especially excited for:

1. I look forward to hearing you say “I love you, aunt Leah” for the first time. : )

2. I’m a great listener so I look forward to you coming to me for relationship advice or any advice at all actually. I hope you want to talk to me about your first girlfriend!

3. On that note, I’m going to enjoy coming to you for advice too sometimes.

4. I can’t wait till you can spend an entire weekend alone with me in LA.

5. I’m excited for your many phone calls to tell me what you did that day.

6. I think we all are ready for the day when you can tell us what’s wrong, what hurts or what we are doing right.

7. I look forward to going to a bar and grabbing a beer together.

8. When you get your first e-mail account and e-mail me!

9. I am going to love introducing you to my favorite movies, books and music.

10. It will be so much fun when you take your mom and I out for dinner one day.

I look forward to all these things too. Watching my son with my sister and seeing their relationship grow and blossom is one of my very favorite things do.

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The House That Built Me

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I love this house and I will miss it.

Today is moving day and I am excited, exhausted, nostalgic and sad.

Walking downstairs this morning, it hit me: last night was my last night here.

No matter how frustrated I have become with this house in the last few months due to its lack of space for Lucas, it’s cold, hard slat floors, it’s barely large enough to turn around in kitchen and it’s distance from good friends and family, we have spent four wonderful years here.

I was proposed to in the dining room.

I became a wife in the backyard.

I saw my parents for the last time in the living room.

I’ve enjoyed meals prepared by my husband, lots of takeout and countless bowls of cereal from the bar in the kitchen.

I’ve walked hundreds of miles on the treadmill in the office.

With my husband by my side, I have cried myself to sleep out of immeasurable grief within the safety and comfort of our bedroom.

We became parents in this house as we paced the floors comforting, soothing and getting to know our newborn.

We turned the upstairs guest room into a nursery and have read, sang and fed our son in the rocking chair in his room night after night for the past 18 months.

We’ve watched hours of mindless television catching up and trying to decompress from our busy days in our family room.

We’ve played “choo choo” and cars in every. single. room.

We have walked to and from the mailbox in hopes of running onto our neighbor’s cat, or better yet, one of our great neighbors.

We’ve hollered at one another at the top or bottom of the stairs, tripped on items that needed to go one way or the other and met each other halfway.

We’ve entertained family, celebrated birthdays and made new friends on our patio and watched a beautiful olive tree grow and bloom in the side yard.

I will carry with me all the warm memories this home has provided and hope that it’s new residents will treat it well.

I love this house and I will miss it.

Here’s to the next chapter…

This post was featured on the BlogHer Home page, in the featured members section on January 5, 2011.

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Head Over Heels

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When just the mere mention of his name makes my heart melt and beat a little faster.

When that first recognition of my existence made me feel like I could do anything.

When he reaches for me, it’s as though I’m the only person in the world.

When he smiles at me and it is so sweet and tender, it makes me want to cry.

It’s a want it, need it, gotta have it feeling that I’ve never felt before.

It’s that kind of love.

Sure, I’ve loved before; the comfort of my own bed, a perfectly worn in pair of jeans, a Dave Matthews song I’ve heard a thousand times before that will never lose it’s impact on me, the scent of my grandmother’s perfume that enveloped me every time I entered her house and my best friend, because she’s everything I’m not and can make me laugh like no one else on earth.

But, I’ve never loved or been loved like this before.

So intensely.

So completely.

So unconditionally.

He is a part of me and no matter what, he always will be.

The love I have for my son’s father is deep and passionate and it’s because of the love we share that I have this precious child at all, but it’s a different kind of love.

There is nothing like the love a mother has for her son.

This is my first attempt at The Red Dress Club’s writing meme, Red Writing Hood. This weeks prompt is: Write a short first-person story about your first love, or write a short fiction piece about a character’s first love.

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Simple Moments

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Moving isn’t easy.

It was not made for the faint of heart, the unorganized, the patient-less, meant to take on during the holidays or the parents of a toddler.

What were we thinking?

As I pack, he unpacks.

As I make piles, he reorganizes them.

As I build boxes, he climbs in them.A few ago, our friends sent us a change of address notice and used a similar trio of photos of their daughter popping out of a box and I loved it so much that it is still on our refrigerator (well, it was until I packed it the other day). This was my attempt at duplicating that.

This holiday, try to enjoy the simple moments, the silly moments, the moments you know you’ll never get back and each and every photo opportunity. I am!

This post is for Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop – Prompt #1: Simple

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Happy Holidays 2010

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Hallelujah, our holiday card has been ordered! Now, I just hope it arrives before we move IN LESS THAN A WEEK or that Shutterfly will pay for forwarding…This year’s card is doubling as a change of address notice. Two birds, one stone, as they say.

Out the window went the idea of a professional family photograph, this was selfroid was taken by Todd on a recent visit to the beach.

Lucas has grown so much in a year. Here’s last year’s card, if you’re interested.

This post is for (not so) Wordless Wednesdays and if you want to link up or see some really beautiful photographs, visit Alicia at A Beautiful Mess. This week she is spreading lots of holiday cheer in the form of outtakes from her family holiday card photo shoot.

Wishing everyone a very happy, fun and safe holiday season.

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You Know You’re A Mom When-sDaze

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You know you’re a mom when…

  • You believe battery companies are still in business because of all the noise making toys in your home.
  • You go to get your child out of the car even when they aren’t with you.
  • You overhear your husband say, “Ay caramba, kid, that’s a fiesta!” as he changes a poopy diaper.
  • You have to hear your son talk about your friend’s dog for days after visiting her; “Soda, Soda, Soda”, or is he saying, “Santa, Santa, Santa”? We really aren’t sure.
  • You scurry across four lanes of traffic to the shoulder of the freeway during rush hour because you are certain your child is either choking or is going to lose his lunch all over the backseat of your car.
  • Cutting your child’s fingernails and toenails seems like a form of torture from all their screaming and carrying on.
  • Nothing sounds better than hearing “read” and being handed a book, even though it’s one you’ve read 1354 times before.

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A Year & A Half

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Lucas is 18 months old today and is a constant source of amazement, joy, fulfillment, love and lately, complete and utter frustration. I believe that the Terrible Twos have begun early in our home.

I thought being a mom to a newborn was tough, but toddlers are way more complicated and exhausting!!

Lucas is starting to test his boundaries and the limits placed upon him and throwing temper tantrums over the littlest things are a daily occurrence. Sometimes hourly. For both him and me.

The incessant repetitive chatter has been the biggest change in the last month. He gets one thing stuck in his head and cannot and will not let it go. Hmmm… Sounds like someone else I know.

His progression is astounding from grunts and groans and lots of crying to making connections between things. He’s a sponge, absorbing everything and in his expanding vocabulary repeats back to us what he’s learning.

He knows where turns off are to parks, that checking the mail means we might see the neighbor’s cat, where I hide his favorite snacks and when I sing a song we learned in music class, he’ll say the teacher’s name.

He lives to push elevator and crosswalk buttons, loves trains and Thomas the Tank and I must put this starter train track set together 19 times a day.

Lucas enjoys watching videos of himself and is proving to be smarter than my smart phone. It’s incredible, he can navigate through different applications, finding the one he wants and operate it. I’m sure he has called Tokyo more than once. The iPhone really needs a lock button!

Lucas’ latest accomplishment is learning how to climb on and off our bed; a fact I learned recently when I left him in our bedroom while I ran downstairs for something and came back to find him like this:Scary!

He loves playing with hats, not wearing them and is a master at peek-a-boo.

No matter how long some days seem, Lucas is my pride and joy and greatest blessing. I look forward to the next month of milestones, behavioral challenges and smiles.

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