I study photographs of him and will them to come to life.
Just one more conversation.
Meet my son.
Put your hand on my belly and feel your granddaughter.
Share a beer and a laugh with your son-in-law.
Be here.
My father would have been 67 today.
I can’t believe he (and my mother) have been gone almost seven years.
Does it ever really sink in?
Does the hurt ever stop?
Michael Stephen Adams 1947-2007
Baby girl is due tomorrow but could have been delivered today.
It was almost a guarantee.
For over a week she was breech and my OB was trying to talk me into having an ECV (External Cephalic Version), a procedure done at the hospital where she and a nurse manually (from the outside) try to flip the baby. My OB said the procedure is only successful half the time and the other half leads to labor, hence the reason it’s done at hospital. It can be very painful and must be done within the 37 and 38th weeks of pregnancy.
I opted not to have the procedure and instead sought help from a chiropractor trained in the Webster technique, involving assessing and correcting any misalignments in the pelvic and low back area helping to keep the ligaments and muscles, which support the uterus, relaxed. I also saw my acupuncturist and performed yoga type movements twice a day and used visualization to move her on my own.
Just to be safe, however, my OB wanted me to schedule a C-section. The VERY last way I wanted to deliver this baby (you can read about my birth plan here)!!
When discussing dates, she said the earliest she could do one would be January 28. I was taken aback to say the least. Knowing my due date is January 29, I always known that it was a possibility that my father and daughter could share a birthday, but I really wanted her to have her own special day. When my OB came up with the date solely based on surgery room availability and her own personal schedule and knowing nothing about the significance to my family, I thought it might be meant to be. My father was my hero and I miss him every day and what better way to pay homage to him than having his granddaughter on his birthday.
A week after making the appointment, baby girl flipped and has been head down ever since! I am equal parts relieved and melancholy. The day is still young, so anything can happen, but with the 7:45 AM C-section canceled, I can’t help but be curious to see if she will choose today to be here.
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oh tonya. not much I can say but to say hang in. and sending love your way. your baby girl is soooo special.
Thinking about you and baby girl. All sorts of emotions running through these last few days, and I’m sending all sorts of good thoughts your way.
There are still a lot of hours left today – either way, can’t wait to meet her when she’s ready.
So excited for you and your daughter. I just know that when you share her Grandfather and the memory of this day with her, she will feel a special connection with him, even if they don’t share the day. 🙂
Thinking about you, and your dad, and your sweet baby, and your day. So much love to you, my sweet friend. xo
I am feeling all kinds of emotions for you.. Joy, melancholy, excite ment and the sting of loss that only some of us who gave lost a parent share.
You know that the Angels are waiting, watching.. And when baby girl arrives it will the perfect time, the perfect day.
Love you and her. Keeping you both inside my heart. Xo
Oh Tonya, I wish everything didn’t have to be so bittersweet. I can’t wait for you to meet your baby girl and wish her grandparents were here to do the same.
Oh my, how very tough. So many prayers, whenever she chooses her day. xo.
There are really no words other than “I love you”.
No matter what day she arrives, know that I’m thinking of you both, and can’t wait to meet her. xo
It breaks my heart that he is not here for all this, Tonya. I know people tell us that they are both here but it’s just not the same.
I love that picture of daddy. That is what he looks like in my head and in my dreams.
I am so glad that it’s looking like you won’t have to have a C-section.