My first Letters For Lucas post was Dear Baby Boy, a letter I wrote to Lucas before he was born. I wrote this letter when my heart was light and my cares were few. I was bursting in anticipation to meet our son and loved every minute of being pregnant with him. Looking back, I took my entire pregnancy for granted. I was native. I didn’t realize at the time what a miracle getting pregnant and staying pregnant was. A long hard three and half year battle with secondary infertility would teach me what a gift bringing a child into this world truly is.
Our baby girl will be here very soon and I know her arrival is going to be something I will have a hard time putting into words. It’s hard for my brain to go there even now as I feel her slowly move and adjust inside my belly. I can’t wait to meet her and hold her and kiss her and be her mother.
I wrote the following letter on Sunday, December 22 at 3:53 AM, I was 35 weeks pregnant:
Dear Baby Girl,
In just a few short weeks you will be here and I’m feeling surreal, scared and overwhelmingly happy. Finally, after years of trying, years of hoping and wishing and praying for you, you will be here.
My daughter. I never thought I would be the mother of a daughter, but now I can’t wait! It is such a wonderful time to be a woman in this world and I already know what a fighter you are.
You aren’t even here yet and I have fallen madly and completely in love with you and you will never know how much I have dreamt about the day we meet, in fact just thinking about it makes my heart twinge and eyes fill with tears. You are so very wanted and we have been waiting for you for so very long.
This is an exciting time for our family, we just moved into a beautiful new house but I know it won’t be until after your arrival that it starts to feel like a home; that it feels complete.
Your brother is anxious to meet you too and is already very protective of you. I hope the two of you will be the best of friends and that you protect him as well. He is an amazing boy and I know he will be a good big brother to you. Some day when your father and I are gone, he will be all you have left of us. Be there for one another and always be strengthening your relationship.
I know that you and I will have our ups and downs but we are forever bonded as mother and daughter and I will cherish you and our relationship always. May you never ever doubt my love.
Anxiously awaiting your arrival.
With all my love,
your mother
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more.
– A Thousand Years, Christina Perri
(This was my “go to” song so many times throughout this journey to have you and I love the lyrics.)
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Trying to squeeze the tears back in. This is a beautiful letter and I can’t wait until she’s here.
Beautiful. You girl is coming into this world to nothing but love – very blessed!
Happy New Year to you and your family!
I guess we’re going to have to come to CA again so I can squeeze that darling girl when she gets here. 🙂 I’m so excited for you! I know it’s been such a long road and to think that she’s almost here – just, wow.
And I LOVE that song. It totally makes me think about Ethan and how grateful I am to have him when I wasn’t sure I would have another. (Stupid PPD.)
I’m so excited for you and your little family. You are going to be a great mommy to a little girl.
Oh, Tonya. Tears. And happiness. And love.
I can’t wait to meet your daughter either.
Happy New Year!
Tears are running, yet again! Your letters always touch me, but this one is so full of love! I can’t wait to meet your daughter either. Only a few days to go now 😉 Love you and here’s to a wonderful year 2014 to you and yours xoxo
Wow an amazing letter!!
I am excited for you Tonya. You will be the greatest mom to this little girl.
So very happy for you and so excited for you to meet your daughter. Such a gorgeous letter!
Such a beautiful letter for your girl. I know she will bring you so much joy.
She will be worth every tear, every heartbreak, every sacrifice. She will fill your heart with contentment and joy like you have not yet known. She will be your constant soul mate, companion, confidant and best friend. She will love you like no other and she will love you forever, but she will keep you awake many nights and chances are she will at some point say but not mean, “I hate you, Mom”.
This definitely filled my eyes with tears and I can really imagine you writing this letter.
I cannot wait to meet and hold your baby girl!! She will be loved so much! 🙂 XOXO